Another separation again

Today
I sent my papa & sis
To KLIA
Cuz, they are going to Japan
My sis will be working in Japan for 3 yrs
Which means that I am not going to see her for 3 yrs =again=
My dad will be goin to settle down her things
& make sure she is ok over there

Feel so sad
The feeling is so bad
Will miss my jiejie very much~~
& iam so stupid
4get to tk picture wif her
stupid stupid me *knock my own head*

**Not very smooth recently, try very hard to keep myself away all those sad things, bad words & moodiness~~ ==

Empty

Life start to get empty
I am not sure wat am i pursuing

except to live wat Iam suppose to

Nid to start to adapt to things which I dun like

Get use to separation, from family-personwhoilove-siblings-frenz

Sis going Japan soon, another one going to start school soon in SG

Everybody has gone bac to their place

To do wat they are suppose to do

=me=

Bac to my USJ room, as usual

Only loneliness and silentness welcome me

Eating alone everyday

instead of eating wif frenz everyday outside our house *now is dapao*

Working life

Try very hard to filter out those which are bad

Bad news, bad customers, bad attitude, betrayal

Hope I wont hate my job too much

I love money, so I cant give up easily

But, its sometime too difficult for me

I needed some motivation

from you you & you *still*

Anyway, I dun wanna ruin ur day wif my moodiness too, so the world is stil beautiful actually if you look into it in another way... ^^

p/s: Just came bac from hometown & my family potrait done in the studio...althought it is slightly expensive, but I am very very satisfied wif the outcome (especially my parents).. Will upload it very soon when I get the soft copy..Can't wait for it =)

LiFe is uNpredicCtabLe

My company is not doing very well recently, i mean in terms of "feng shui".
Everybody are chasing for time, being scold by customer, fall sick....

This few days, I get to know that my pregnant colleague has some problem with her baby gal.
At first when she went for check-up, doctor told her that her baby had a hole in the heart, but still yet to be confirm after a full check-up and scaning. Today, she had been informed by her doctor that her baby had down-syndrome. *Shock* It is really heart-breaking to see a very cheerful lady turning into a silent and sad person, haiz~~~

I can't believe that this situation is happening around me, normally we will just see these cases in tv or newspaper, but it eventually happens beside me.

Hopefully she can make it over this tough period. "jiayou gal, u can make it de....remember u still have us supporting u in office oh" *pray hard for you*

p/s: Post this blog is not to remind her about all this sad things, is juz 2 give another reminder to all of u out there, life is veri precious, try 2 cherish every time & moment in ur life...
I noe everybody is bz earning money in such a down economy period, but i think sometimes we may lost our direction upon tonnes and tonnes of works.
So, dun forget 2 look up above ur bundle of files in office, relax for awhile. Have some times with ur loves one. ^^ (as i cant always be together with my love ones)

*jiayou everybody*

& thx to my parents for giving me such a gd health & life *love u all*

Thrown away

Suddenly felt being left out..

Iam always alone..

Wherever i go,watever i do, there will be empty spaces beside me..

Iam what Iam now since Iam small.. The one who always hide at the corner, sitting there having nth in my mind..

Nobody will notice my appearance if i juz kept quiet..

No talking, no fun, no sharing, no asking, no concerning, no no no(as far as I concern)

"Be independent, Be strong, Be brave, Be a powerful gal" Muahahahahaha
Because...

No pain No gain~~~


**yesterday dream abt a terrible accident (again), so scary** down period

UnpRediCtable

I juz get 2 noe from my sis that her ex met a veri terrible car accident...

2 of her fren's fren had gone 2 a far far way land & her ex was in ICU now~~~ *speechless*

i got the shock of my life...how can this happen??

All those crying-scene,hospital-scene & car-crashing-scene like appear beside me for a sudden which strikes my head & makes me difficult 2 show a smile on my face.

Start 2 worry about my sis in UK...hope she will get over this incidence soon & pick up her mood for work d...Wish she will be fine anyway~~~

Life is reli veri unpredictable..anytime, anywhere and anything might happen on us (touch wood 2 say) Do the things that u wanna do, love the ones u love, buy the things u wanna buy, eat the food u wanna eat (but not until tat extend) .... juz dun let urself regret~~~

So..... who wann company me go eat la jiao ban mian ???

bAd dAugther

I realise that iam a bad daughter...

since i start my work, i seldom call bac home (although last time i oso seldom call bac d la)...mayb iam bz working so no time & din tk an effort 2 call bac gua~~~

I got a 5 days holiday straight put for me & actualli i had a chance 2 go bac home,but i din...instead, i choose 2 celebrate christmas in kl wif my frenz....

then suddenly,there is this call by my meimei on friday nite & asked me whether i wanna go bac home 2 celebrate my mum's bday or not...

Actualli i plan 2 rest at home during sat, sun & mon but i suddenly remember that my mum's bday next yr is her 50th bday...So, i decided 2 go bac home in the next morning & i bought a RM160 estee lauder perfume 4 her (RM 160 leh, heart pain)...

However, my dad told me that there is no more bus ticket available 4 me 2 come bac on monday...So, i cant go bac jb..i cant i cant i cant celebrate my mum's bday...

Can heard that my mum is abit sad & dissapointed,she oso say "aiyo,no nid say sori la...if got heart, u d come bac d la.." *if got heart,u d com bac d la...* These hurts me alot,makes me feel that iam not a filial daughter...

Mama,iam veri veri sori....i noe ur 50th bday meant alot 2 u,but ur this stupid daughter cant even be at ur side...next time i bou fan sou lo, ok??

I LOVE U!!! ^^

SaY gd-bYe 2 mY skY

"Next station, Newton..."

Omgggg, here it comes....iam so scare scareeeee~~~

On the date of 23/11/08 (sunday), is my scariest day in my whole 2008... SIA (Singapore Airline) interview is held in Sheraton's Tower Hotel. *As i mentioned b4 tat iam goin for a flight-stewardess job*

B4 entering the hotel, i saw some pretty gals walk out from the hotel. This make me even more nervous and less confidence as they reali look veri pretty... Thx 4 my meimei who clam me down by saying "Haiyo, no need scare la, u are much taller than them la" keke :P

So after fixing my make up in the toilet, i started queing-up for the registration as the line is getting longer & longer. So i start at around 12pm...

Iam all ready....queing-up

Finish making up and tidying my clothes.. take 1 full-length photo *blink*

So, this are the following situation which happens during my interview ( 2 make my story short la):

12.00pm--

Queue-up for my registration...The registration includes measuring my height & see whether i can reach a line of 210cm high. yuppie, saya boleh =)

The queue in front of me, iam stil waiting 4 the registration

The queue behind me, so u can imagine how many ppl come 4 the interview

2.00pm--

Stil queing up~~~walao,my high heels are making my poor feet ache like nobody business & now is my turn..notice, i queue up for a freaking 2 hours juz for that freaking registration

My meimei waitin 2gether wif me, muacks ^^

2.05pm--
Done my registration, but stil need 2 wait again..wait for the 1st round interview (heard that there are 4 rounds altogether)..*calm down abit*

2.45pm--

Stil waiting.. We sense something wrong as many of the candidates that came after me when into the waiting hall d, so me & my new-knowed-fren went 2 ask...

2.50pm--
walao~~~our form missing d,nvm,they ask us (a group of us,so shuei...) 2 refill the form again..

3.00pm--
finally, they call us (8 gals in a group) 2 the waiting hall for our 1st round interview...Our group number is 85... So agak-agak, got around 600++ candidates came 4 the interview...OMG!!!

3.45pm--

"Group 85"they called...cham,my turn, my turn...iam shaking all over now,so so scare..

1st Round Interview,

We need 2 introduce ourself one by one and iam the 1st person, lagi shake...& i sort of miss 1 question which is asked by the interviewee. Nvm, its ok...juz kip on talking...on & on & on~~

After that, 8 of us wait outside the hall for the 1st round result...Among the 8 of us, 3 of us make it through the next round...& Iam One Of Them!!! Iam so so so so hapi (same as my meimei who waited there so long 4 me)

Uniform-testing Round
3 of us then proceeded 2 the next session...Uniform-testing,iam so excited abt it~~~ Am i dreaming?? wearing a real SIA flight-stewardess uniform..Can u imagine that, how on the earth that i can ever wear a SIA air-stewardess uniform ...

This round test us abt cat-walk, talking skills, 2 see whether we r suitable in wearing their uniform and also 2 check whether there are scars on our exposed-part-body (such as legs and hands)

So, we r given 5 minits 2 change our outfit,tie-up our hair (for those who have long hair), take off all our acessories..

Unfortunately & sadly, i din pass this round...u noe y??

For my guess la, my catwalk did not go so smoothly,hehe...no la...I think it is becuz of my left hand, there is a scar which is left behind during my europe trip (S**t)...aiks~~~

duno how 2 respond 2 that...feel sad lo when i noe abt the result...*i guess so la*

The scar which is "not passed", see?? but the interviewee saw it veri clearly,alamak

But i am quite satisfy 2 pass through the 1st round & i heard that veri veri few ppl pass the 2nd round (like 2 out of 10 gals)

Nvm, can try my luck next time..who noes,i got it leh..

Thx 2 my dearest dearest meimei who company me through the whole process (although she din went in la)...reali wanna sek sek her d,i think she is more exhausted than me~~~

Pity meimei, see how tired is she in the mrt, so paiseh la....reali thx oh =)

& one more thing...iam 170cm, not 172cm (hehe,become shorter d).

Thx 2 all my frenz who waited and asked 4 my interview result~~~

Reali thx 4 all ur concern, although iam stil abit dissapointed, but all urs words make me feel much much better.... Love u all ^^